ooc: Hello there everyone - If you’ve read the final act you’ll see that Yusei is sort of well… dead.

What is the reason for this?

I know some of you may think it is because thatsliferslacker is done rp’ing.

I want to tell you all now that is not true at all.

My Yusei has been for the past few months severely depressed and contemplating suicide. He never thought he would do it, he always wanted to fight through it and always thought he had to to be there for others.

This is how, I’ve been feeling with my Yusei. I feel I lost myself with him he got so depressed and in all reality my Yusei was just… A slightly altered version of myself I will admit. Mostly when I wrote for Yusei I wrote what I was feeling. So in essence - Am I depressed? Yes. 

It’s mostly also, I just got sick of tumblr. It began to feel like a chore to reply to roleplays, and I felt I wasn’t even being like a proper Yusei. I felt I wasn’t portraying a proper Yusei at all anymore.

Also when I first started rp’ing as Yusei I promised myself to stay in character and to never post an ooc post so it would be as if Yusei himself was actually running this blog. I broke that rule and still beat myself up for that.

To those of you who thought I did, and thought I still did a great job - I thanked you but I didn’t actually believe that myself - I myself wasn’t satisfied. (No Team Satisfaction pun intended).

This in fact, by making Yusei actually “die” is closure not only for me - but for my Yusei. It’s a huge weight lifted off of both our shoulders and who knows - one day I could be back under a new Yusei blog if he so decides to brave himself out here in the tumblr world again.

I don’t know if I’ll delete this account or archive it, that is still to be decided.

I’m sorry this was such an abrupt way to do it - And I really truly to hope I didn’t hurt anyone’s feelings too badly. I love Yusei dearly, which is why when I roleplayed him if bad things happened to him - or happy things I took it to the heart and it ultimately effected my mood as well.

I feel honored and blessed to have roleplayed with every single person I have - With every single follower I’ve earned and lost - With every person whom I’ve made friends with, and even those that just sent asks - anon or not. I appreciate you all and I hope you can understand I’m doing this for my overall better health/mood/well being.

Thank you all. -Sherri

R.I.P. Yusei Fudo

Died: 16th of January 2013

Isn’t it funny how the one’s who seem the strongest are actually the frailest. To try and be strong for those around them - to never be able to show vulnerability for you are depended on and must never show weakness. How one nightmare of never wanting to die - can be so different from reality.

He never thought he would do it, he always thought he would fight through it - but now it seemed… Right. 

He was in denial about his true feelings, his true thoughts. He always had to be the strong one - he could never snap, could never break and could never tear. He was their glue - but over time glue becomes old and less adhesive and the pieces which stick soon stray away.

It was only a matter of time before he sent the humanoid off to the spirit realm, and he admitted he thought it would have been with Judai - but plans don’t always end up working as one thoughts conjure. 

He took a deep breath and explained to the boy what was happening - Although there were fights there was preparation and they were soon on their way. A visit to Martha and he explained how he would have to wait for a girl named Ruka. She would visit, one day she would - She would know what to do and be the perfect guide for the boy.

He visited Rally, Taka, Nervin, and Blitz - which was followed by a visit to Martha. It was a nice surprise for all of them - the smiles on their faces were refreshing and relieving all in the same to see them all doing so well. Even the kids were happy to see Yusei and Stardust.

He had taken a walk back to the garage once again after dropping off Stardust looking around the area flashes of memories appeared before him - Jack, Bruno and Crow. Aki walking downstairs in her duel runner apparel - The twins running down the stairs with her on a normal day coming home from Duel Academia. 

A hand traced over the back of the couch as he walked by the furniture a small flash of a smile as he saw Stardust curled in the corner. 

A pat to the crimson red metal of the Yusei-Go as he looked to the minor dings which had been accumulated over time that he couldn’t manage to buff out. 

It was then he walked upstairs and stepped into his bedroom as he took a deep a deep breath before shakily exhaling. Stepping forward he gripped onto the sheets as he lifted them up to his face inhaling - hoping to catch a whiff of his scent one last time.

Another deep exhale as he walked out from the bedroom and crossed to the bathroom where he flung open the shower curtain as if expecting to catch someone there - but of course it was vacant. 

He closed all the doors upstairs, walked downstairs and looked to the kitchen one last final time seeing Stardust so happy to be making an Dango family - He swore he could almost smell the familiar sauce that accompanied the brunette’s pasta.

The final door was closed to the garage as he walked outside leaving behind the memories.

It all lead up to this moment though didn’t it? Funny how he would be in that same familiar area where he always came to to think. However, he knew he wouldn’t be needing to think tonight.

Standing on the railing which overlooked the city he cared for so much and Satellite the wind blew through his hair, jacket flapping in the wind as he looked down to his deck which he held onto tightly to ensure no cards would escape.

He smiled as he looked over the outlook;

“Martha.” he remembered saying; “I’m about to do something stupid, but please love me as you always have.” 

She looked to him, about to question - However she could tell he wouldn’t discuss further. He couldn’t remember the last time he had been so serious with her. She simply nodded and told him she trusted him - And that she of course would love him - no matter what idiotic thing he was about to do.

The turbo duelist almost chuckled at her statement, even though in reality if she knew the situation… Well he shouldn’t be chuckling at all - Which is why his body wouldn’t allow him to do so.

He looked down towards his deck as the wind began to die down, slowly he uncurled his fingers from the paper as he raised the deck to his mouth and blew gently as the cards scattered into the air falling down into the city below.

This city, it had been what he knew to live for - To protect it, to have hope in it to keep it by his side and yet he knew now he had done what needed to be done. He wasn’t needed any longer - But oddly enough he still cared for it which was why  he would merge himself with this city - for, it was all he truly knew in his life as a definite.

One last time he stretched his arms out as if to hug the city he had become accompanied with so well before closing his eyes, lowering his hands back down to his sides, his palms facing towards the outlook as he slowly leaned forward until there was no railing which kept his feet in balance.

He didn’t know if he would be found - He knew he would make some sad - But in the long run - This was closure and this… Was the easiest moment of felicity which was to be graced upon the mechanic.

I love you all… I’m sorry, But please understand - I’m now truly and completely… Happy.

burning-hocaloid asked: *nods and leaves* 'I hope he'll be okay.'

“…” Thank you…

burning-hocaloid asked: The girl cleaned up the mess despite being worried about her spiky haired friend. "You need to get out of the house, Yusei. Just go and get some fresh air." she recommended.

“Just… Just please leave.” Hands curled into fists as he shook. “I don’t mean to be rude but please leave.”

burning-hocaloid asked: For right now, though, here. *Gives Yusei a glass of milk* maybe this will calm your nerves.

The mechanic accepted the glass, however it seemed as though he held on too tight as the glass shattered and fell to the ground milk flying.

I’m not nervous, I’m done. Done with you all.

burning-hocaloid asked: I think we both need a well deserved vacation.... *covers eyes* Any more of this and we'll both be nervous wrecks...

“Yes… I suppose so…”

burning-hocaloid asked: *sighs and rubs temples* I'm trying not to, but I can't help it. *sighs again* I need a break...

“…It’s fine I just…” Can you not mention break?

burning-hocaloid asked: Yusei, are you okay?!?!?

“I’m fine - Do not fret.”

trinityparadoxfangirl asked: Oh my... Are you alright Yusei?!

The ex-Signer nodded, still in a bit of a shaken daze. “Yes… Must have just been a dream I guess.”